i think she forgot.
disappointed and hurt.
but what can i say?
what can i do?
my pride won't let me.
it just goes to show how little this means to her, i guess.
but its alright, i'm not going to cry and throw tantrums.

because i'm so numb, i can't feel disappointment and hurt any longer.


can't explain this feeling i have.
kept me up for nights,
yet i'm no closer to the answer.

its wrong, yet why do i feel this way?
its like i can't help it at all.
and no matter how wrong i tell myself it is,
it just wouldn't go away.
haven't felt like that for a long time,
and i wished i would never have to feel this way ever again.


haven't been doing much studying recently.
i spent all my time sleeping/ watching tv/ on the computer.
ppl tell me that studying will kick in, but it doesn't seem that way for me.
what exactly is wrong with me?
has something in me finally snapped?


someone help me please